Is Happiness underated??

hello guys
I m sorry its been a minute.. i neglected my blog and i apologise. Its just that other events took over. As i speak i ve taken the week off to ''Clear my head'' and '' reprioritise and refocus'' what happiness means to me

I ve been happy so many times in my life i kind of never knew what it meant to be unhappy until the past recent year. I am one of those people who is constantly a happy child. With a few exceptions of sad occasions namely the loss of my father  and maybe the occasional ' I- didnt- see- that- one- coming- break up'

The Positives..
I have two children, a Son and a daughter. They mean the world to me and i cannot imagine my life without them. I d die before i let anything happen to them. And i Thank God, Allah for them everyday..
They make me happy whenever they smile they show how much they love me .. my 1 yr old son always wants to jump on me whenever i get back from a trip or get home from being absent for a couple of hours. Or my daughter telling her nanny or anyone that cares to listen ''My Mummy says......"
I have a few close friends i know i can count on.. through thick and thin..
Im in my early thirties and i am thankful..

The Negatives..
I have spent the last five years of my life with someone who did not have a clue as to who i am. And also someone who was not interested in knowing who i am. All he wanted to see was who he wanted me to be. Don t get me wrong i don t see anything in your spouse moulding you to be who he wants you to be. That is all well and good, If there are other things present. What are these other things u may ask? Love Friendship Trust and Understanding. Love comes and goes but the other things are the bedrock that keeps y'all together.
I ve always been the non conformist.. Maybe some may say this is the problem that got me to my present day dilemma. But as we Muslims believe,  I am where and exactly where i am destined to be. This was all written.

I look forward to the day that InshaAllah my kids are all grown and they understand that mummy had to be bold (..To  take care of her before she took care of you'') The way i am bringing them up, I am confident they will understand
I look forward to the day I find all the things i am looking for in my future partner, whatever his race religion or creed i know he is out there. Because God did not create us to be alone on this earth. In the meantime, my hands are full and my head is occupied. Gotta focus on work and making it rain! After all , as i say my kids will attend Ivy league colleges!!

Take care of yourselves guys
God sees your heart
Keep me and my kids in your prayers xxx